A Letter to my Daughter

Thank you!

Thank you for what you have taught me; by coming into my life and revealing love - by your life, through your illness, and even through that which we call ‘death’.

I was doing what we all do, seducing myself with the distractions of this world so as to ‘enjoy’ as much of it as I could. I did not understand that this was not, and is not, my function or reason for being. I, like most, was fully ignorant of who I am.

You lived ‘here’ as if you knew something different than the rest of us, even if you were not certain until your last days. You radiated a Beauty we could not grasp, somehow more innocent in your Love for others than most. You loved deeply, held no grudges, forgave freely, judged none, accepted all. You were my earthly example of all that matters.

Your illness and death left me crushed, literally demolished, drowning in a sea of black, violent pain. And yet, beneath its surface, there was you. You somehow stayed with me, even when I did not realize your presence, as part of a Love I had forgotten. You held me closely and tenderly and revealed to me the very pain that I abhorred was a stepping stone to my salvation. You took me by the hand in my darkest moments and placed it within the hands of Love. You showed me this world is but a dream that we must awaken from, and that nothing else Truly matters.

When I held you as a baby, as the tears streamed down my face, I somehow knew you were here to teach me, you were here to guide me through the valley of the shadow of death, and to coax me onward to a Peace untold. When I held you as a baby, I felt love like never before, and yet that glimpse opened a portal within my soul that hinted at a pain beyond imagination. I somehow knew in those sweet moments when you snuggled within my heart that sorrow awaited me. And, beyond the sorrow, Eternity beckoned.

Thank you for loving me, for looking past my faults, for being there like no other could be. You somehow knew me, didn’t you? You somehow saw something others could not. You Loved from a different place, and not just me, but all that came into your world.

You have pointed me towards all that is, to the Truth of who I am. And i will always be grateful to you! My blessed and beautiful daughter!

From my eternal heart to yours - thank you.

I love you.

Daddy